I never know how to think about Rachel's birthday. Today I thought about her - this sweet sister that I never got to know. I wondered about how she would be as a seventeen year old, a senior in high school, driving around to friends' houses and early morning seminary and choir concerts (academic decathlon? volleyball?). It made me sad to think about this fun person that we didn't get to have around for the last seventeen years. I know we would have loved her. Me and Kevin would of course have to teach her how to be an awesome girl and Leanne would introduce her to the art of midnight fudgy brownies and falling asleep to movies, and Eric would show her how to play the guitar and get all defensive when boys came over to impress her, and Blake would make her laugh consistently, first by banging his head into stuff and then talking about drugs and then just being awesome.
When I thought about Rachel today, she really was part of our family. And that made me smile, because I know she is a real person that really exists. For some reason, she can't be here with us now but when time and space break down and we leave behind all the pointless stuff we chase so vehemently, there will be hugs and love. There will also be fun - I'm pretty sure of that. I love that girl and I can't wait to get to know her.
3 comments:
Kelly thank you. Rachel would have been all those fun things. Thank you for writing about her today. It is good to step away from the sad feelings and to think of Rachel in a happy way, a way that makes her more real to everyone.
This is so sweet and thoughtful. I actually think about Rachel a lot. I see the wonderful young women she would be friends with, and try to picture how they would love her. I also ponder how we would enjoy her with us. What a great thing to know we will, in fact, have that opportunity.
This really is a great post Kelly.
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